New Digs...
Hey gang... It's been a while. I'm still having a bit of a hard time dealing with my divorce and what led up to it. I've lost a lot of my idealism, but through the suffering, I've grown a lot. It's still hard sometimes- but most of the time I am glad to experience the betrayal, the hurt, and the sadness that I did. If you look back at some of the last few posts, I asked to share in christ's sufferings. That was brave. Dumb, and brave. So I got to. I experienced betrayal like he did with Judas. I experienced a feeling like God had forsaken me. I'm still somewhat living in the "dark night of the soul" as it's been recorded by many ancient and contemporary christians I respect. Quite frankly, God and I have a rather estranged relationship with Him- I'm stuck in a not-so-hot spot and I am finding it hard to get out of it. But I know I will soon, and then I'll hopefully start to write about some healing.
I still believe. Probably more than ever. It's more real now... More visceral. More... Organic. But I can't put feet to my faith. I'm addicted to my crutches and I'm too tired to do the work of standing on my own right now.
As for OC.com, it is changing hands. I've neglected it too long, and I'm still not ready to really start writing again. I've handed off the domain to someone who believes he can really do something with it.. I hope he does. For now- Adieu.
When things come back around for me, it will be at a new site- viafide.org. It's latin (bastardized latin) for "the way of faith." I'm not going to be griping about what's wrong with the church anymore (well, not as much.) I'm focused now on discipleship and spiritual growth, not reform. People don't change 'till they want to.
And some never do. They simply play church and keep doing what they're doing... from Adultery to Z. Talking to someone is fruitless if they're in denial and don't take responsibility for the place they're in, the wake they leave, and the consequences of their actions...
Via fide will be for those that want to walk in the way of faith. If someone doesn't want to... Fine.
No more pearls before swine.
Holy crap. I never understood what that meant until just this moment.
see you around at viafide.org if you're interested... you can also contact me at rob [at] screamstone [dot] com anytime.
Godspeed everyone... Jesus is Lord even when the world is crumbling. It just gets harder to focus on him when your world is so turbulent..
