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I have so much to write... and I'm still growing and learning from the suffering I've been blessed with over the last 3 years. My life as I knew it was crushed and mangled by the one person I loved and trusted most. I[ve been given an opportunity to love my own Judas. But it cost me the life I had- all the securities, the safety-nets, and the things I held most dear. It makes me think a lot about the other things I hold on to... Things I am afraid of letting go of.

But here's the real truth I learned... The things that we think we are holding on to are actually holding on to us. We think we're in control- but in actuality, we are being controlled by what we're holding on to. The things we think we posess are usually posessing us.To quote Bill Malonee from Vigilates of Love: "I thought these chains were jewlery."

What about you? Is that a diamond tennis bracelet or handcuffs?

In this loss, I've found a new bottom... a new low and emptiness. And only there can we really find a pure re-fill. Yeah, I tried to fill it myself for a while, but then I realized that I was wasting that suffering. I'm honestly not ready to write about this, but lately some encouragement from friends had me get off my ass and get the old OC articles up.

I don't know my real goals yet, but I did want to get the articles back up for those of you asking for them. Sorry it took so long. I was a wreck for a year or more, and slowly recovering and re-discovering myself for another year after that. I'm only now at the very beginning of where I can begin to write and think of these things again. I had a lot to learn, and still do... but Thank God for the journey and even the pain.

So why am I thankful???

When we share in Christ's sufferings we can share in His Glory. (Romans 8:17)